Ponder

why not we ponder on this
let's talk on what's been amiss
instead of acting like i don't exist
why don't come to me vis-a-vis

no need to act dumb by giving me that look
no need to portion out all the blames
you know i'm better at you in that book
silence treatment is always my game

how many times should i say
so you would finally see it

good luck playing games i don't want to play
when you're done just beat it

I Looked

i found love when i'm not looking
i found love when i looked away
i found love when i'm looking for something else
i found love when i looked at you

In, Just About Again

i stood paralysed
with my orange ballpoint pen
i can't stop smiling
to my left and to my right, left again

there's a rush in my veins
not of blood, not of pain
it's ethereal
somehow even words can't explain

with it came a tint of blue
saying i want to, i want to
all those things i have forgotten how to

like singing you goodnight
like kissing you awake
like buying sweet and thoroughly useless memento
like hugging you to death
like laughing at you, silly
like talking to you on the phone until i fall asleep
like being with you

like missing you

like knowing the pain of having you far

like falling for you, again tonight
again this time